FACT: I have to be at school in 6 hours to volunteer with a UIL academic meet. Yes, I am so unbelievably nerdy it should pain you. ;]
FACT: I almost got into a car wreck today, the closest I had ever been while actually being the one driving. I wasn't so concerned about my safety as much as what my parents would do to me if I had.
FACT: Stage make-up, lack of sleep, and plenty of stress = Kayla's face looks like a disaster zone. Pleasant.
FACT: I proceeded to have an emotional meltdown while driving today; I think it was just the culmination of everything lately.
FACT: It's been a tough week. I don't think I'm alone in saying that.
However --
I have realized something very important from the events of this week, looking back at old journaling, and just taking the time to step back and view everything in a relatively mature light.
I harbor an excessive amount of negativity in my life for no reason except for habit. I really don't want to be this kind of person, and I don't care for the unhappiness of it all. I want to be happy, productive, open, effervescent, creative, confident, passionate, and positive. I am not doing a good job of living a life I've imagined and I'm really the only one who can change that.
So ... in light of the recent stress and negativity of this week ... I have decided that tomorrow will be brighter, and better and I will try my damnedest to be authentic with my feelings but not to wallow in negativity. I think negative energy just spawns more of its own kind and that's no way to live at all!
It took a good deal of random riding around in cars and sitting in diners tonight that finally got that to sink in. I'm slow on the uptake.
Anyhow, tomorrow is a new day and (un)fortunately it starts in less than 6 hours!
Oh beautiful slumber, relieve me from painful somnolence so that tomorrow I may awake avec les yeux d'optimiste!
5 comments:
you put up the picture i drew like 3 years ago :)
I love that picture! (kudo's to brooke.)
"The secret to happiness. Have no preference." I have this on my board at work. If you don't prefer something else, you are happy with what you've got.
Try making a list of all the things you love about your life. Any time something good happens, add that to your list. I used to be the same, until I realised I had it REALLY good, and had no reason to be sad.
Chin up lovely =) x
Wow. Love the picture. Nice artwork... ur friend did!
yay positive thinking!
and at least you have the thanksgiving break to look forward to!
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