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Alright so, Dayna tagged me to name one thing that made me happy for 8 days starting on Thursday. I obviously haven't done it since then, so I'm going to do a quick catch up and maybe I'll edit this and improve it later.

Thursday: Giving Shelby her Christmas gift!
Friday: Crashing the Haltom Theatre Party with Merry Attire and French Christmas Carols
Saturday: Watching Elizabeth's film

Woo!

Party tonight.

I'm psyched.

Me and Cinderella put it all together

Dayna is home for the holidays! This excites me to a very large degree. Last night was the theatre Christmas party. I think it went well, lots of people told me they had fun. The room looked beautiful and we had plenty of food and there was always something to do. I hate dancing and being "crunk" and all that shabang, s o I felt sort of awkward most of the time and had I not been the one hosting it I most likely would have left early. Haha, but don't feel sorry for me. I had a lot of fun! Billy dressed up as Jesus and wore a Birthday crown and Baylor was the most precious Charlie Brown; he even brought his own little pathetic tree. =] I love that kid! My camera was acting funny and all the pictures I took looked like they were in a fog, so I used AK's camera. When she uploads pictures I'll share them on here. Good news is, my camera recovered and is no longer foggy. Yeah!

And now, a real transcript of a conversation between Dayna and I last night:

K: So today at lunch Michael, Jordan, and I were discussing who would win Vampire vs. Superman.
D: Oh vampire, definitely. I hate Superman.
K: Well, even despite how you feel about him personally, Superman would totally lose -- vampires are way faster and more powerful.
D: Yeah.
K: And then we wondered, what about Vampire vs. The Flash.
D: That one's hard.
K: Yeah, because The Flash is just barely faster than a Vampire ... but Vampires have super sensory reaction that The Flash doesn't have so all he'd have to do is sneak up on him and suck him dry.
D: Yeah. (beat) ... I know ... Vampire vs. Unicorn!
K: Cha. No contest. Vampire.
D: Yeah, I figured but I just thought it would be the ultimate Good vs. Evil.
K: Yeah.
D: (beat) What about a Vampire Unicorn?
K: (beat) ... Awesome.



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And one more thing ...

This shirt is so cute, I want it!

That frankly will not fly

Ugh. I'm disgusted with myself. I really need to start over and improve in pretty much every aspect of my life. Goodness.


I know this is a trail mix ad, but I just stumbledupon it and it seemed relevant. haha


Okay, so I'm not just another "I'm leaving a vague lamentation comment in a dramatic attempt to make people wonder about my state of being and inquire" I will elaborate on the comment I made up there.


I am growing increasingly impatient and bored with my life as I countdown the months before I get to move to Austin and START OVER. I am really looking forward to starting over because ...

a) It's hard to change peoples' opinions of you after they already have an idea of how they want to see you. I know that I've changed and grown a lot and it's frustrating for people to see you as the same person you were a few years ago.

b) As a senior in high school, most of my peers are now younger than me. High school is already frustrating when you can't hold intelligent conversations with your peers, but as you grow older and the older students graduate you have fewer and fewer people with whom to have scintillating conversation. Thus breeds frustration.

c) I'm bored. Bored with what I'm learning, bored with what I'm doing on the weekends, bored with the people I interact with, bored with myself and my own inactivity. Just plain bored. I want to feel passionate about life again!

Alright, because of this I have been:

cranky, grouchy, impatient, rude, apathetic, and negative.

This is no good.

I've stopped eating healthy and stopped doing things I love and stopped putting in the effort to be a good person and to hold my tongue when people annoy me or make me mad because the attitude of "Why does it matter?" has set in.

This is a TERRIBLE attitude to have. I recognize this! SO ... I am going to try try TRY to stop it. I am going to strive to do the things that make me happy like crafts, and scrapbooking, and writing, and watching good films, and listening to good music, and being around people I love. I am going to strive to only put good, helpful substances into my body. I am going to strive to treat every person with patience and kindness. I am going to strive to treat myself more nicely and not be so self-critical.

So yeah, pretty much.


Haha ... look at past posts I realize that I wrote a pretty similar post about a month ago. Go figure I was on my period then as I am now. Maybe I'm just super self critical when I'm PMS-ing?? haha ... ugggh.

I think perhaps that might have a little something to do with it, because although I haven't posted in a while, a lot of happy things have happened that I've continued putting off writing about. Things like: Making a breakthrough in the screen writing, Earning 12 hours of college credit already, the UIL academic meets, Garrett and Sam's birthday part, seeing "Ebeneezer", seeing "Synedoche, NY", seeing "The Last 5 Years" and having Dayna visit.

Maybe I just need to chillax, drink some water, go to sleep, and give myself another shot tomorrow.