What is a girl to do?

I've been a little "college crazy" for the past few days. However, I am pleased to say it is NOT a panicky, nerve-ridden anxiety sort of crazy (maybe a little ...) . Most of all, I am just unbelievably excited and very impatient to go to the University of Texas at Austin. The final "at Austin" part is really important, since AUSTIN is the beautiful, artistic, alive place that really solidified my choice of UT. I've been scanning the UT website aaaaaaaaalllll the time, surfing College Confidential chat boards, thinking about dorm decor, looking at the Kerbey Lane website, google map'ing the walking distance between the dorms and Whole Foods -- I. am. obsessed. To probably an embarrassing degree. But I'm just so EXCITED!

^^ ^ This is a picture I took from an observation deck
on the Houston(?) Building at UT during
the summer's honors colloquium!

I've been trying to eat healthier (including a 30-day vegetarian challenge) and I've already lost a few pounds since the beginning of the month. I'm also trying to work on my self-esteem and my relations with my family and other people; and I think I'm doing pretty well. It's still definitely a work in progress, but I'm working my butt off to be in a really peaceful, centered, beautiful place when I arrive in Austin in August. I want to put my best self forward.

That being said, I'm behind on my senior scrapbook for English class, I haven't worked on a script since Christmas, and I am intolerably bored and fed up with my classes and even THEATRE. I love acting, but we're working on musical right now (ugh) so that means hardly any acting, only dancing and prancing around. It's fun, but it's not the same. Also, when it comes to the social organization, I just haven't been doing a great job of planning a lot of events or meetings. It didn't seem logical with exams, Christmas break, and tech week for musical all happening one after the other. Eh. But it's okay though. 18 more weeks 'til graduation.

I've realized this year that out of my very large group of friends, only a small handful are people I really connect with and trust. I'm not upset about this fact, not at all! I think everyone is in the same situation if they really examined it closely. However, because of this I am semi-anti-social (sorry!) and spend a lot of time with my family or just a few certain people. I just feel like all of my peers and I have all grown in different directions and we're just too big for our little terracotta suburban pot! These plants gotta grow somewhere NEW!

... but all in due time, right? And I believe that these next 18 weeks are purposely mundane and dragging in order to give me the time I need to become who I want to be physically, creatively, emotionally, and mentally.

Oh and guess who's back in TEXAS???



Yep. Brooke. =] And I'm looking forward to seeing her. It's been a loooooong time since I've talked to my good friend face to face instead of through letters or packages or blog posts or texts or telephone. Hurray!



I'm in a great mood tonight.