We Will Become Silhouettes

What a strange week. I laid in bed Friday night and wondered if it had actually happened ... it did, and then the next day it got even more odd.

So ... my best friend since we were 11... After the initial shock, I'm actually really okay with it. Looking back, I probably could have seen it and sort of did, but it's just something to get used to. I don't think it will actually feel real until she actually does anything. It was strange, but it actually felt like a huge weight off of my shoulders. Strange but it made me feel like I didn't have to compete with her all the time like I always feel like I have to do. Rationally that doesn't even make since -- but I always felt like I was the less pretty, less likable, less date-able out of the two of us but somehow this unrelated revelation has made me feel like that isn't true -- we're equal but different.

To throw a kicker on top of all that? My best guy friend has also told me. I know -- it sounds fishy, but he actually had before he moved here, and just never told us about it until a month ago when he told yesterday.

So all of the sudden ... they have suddenly become minorities, making me the minority by not being a minority. Ha. Well, it was weird at first. But all good.

The three of us talked and it was just funny because now that everything was out in the open between all of us, we all became instantly closer and more relaxed. Of course, being my sarcastic bitch self I took advantage to make fun of them, myself, the situation, and many other things. Don't judge me, I'm just a Faye type. bahaha.

Blah. That's enough about that subject -- it's still taking my brain some time to process it.

In other news --- MY CRAFTY SENSES ARE TINGLING!

I want to make some crafts! I want to display them and sell them and make them for my friends! I want to make polymer clay animals and little foods and put them on necklaces and jewelry :] I want to make skirts and clothes! I want to make felt stuffed animals and plushies! I want to make cool duct tape stuff! PURSES! I WANT TO MAKE PURSES! Really cool collages, too. If I could knit, I'd make kick ass scarves, too. BASICALLY - I want to do everything and I can't settle down and focus enough to decide where to focus my time, money, and energy to decide what I should work on first. Knitting was pretty difficult, polymer clay is too expensive, I'm sure I'll get sick of duct tape stuff after making a prom dress and tuxedo of it, I think I'm going to try and go the textile/sewing route? Gah. Still expensive. Maybe I'll stick with reconstruction? I don't know ... hmm. I need to go to Thrift Town and get some pieces to remake and get an idea. Once I actually START on a project and commit, I'm sure I'll be fine - but before then ... gah.

Anyway -- enough complaining about that.

I felt all warm and tingly today when El Spoffo sent me a text message -- 'tis so nice to talk to him, I love our new bond :]

fdgfdgdfhjgdfh. I think my brain is going to explode again. gah.